Wallgau, Germany

Dolph's Letter #92

Dear Sweetheart -

Received your letter dated on the 19th.

I can well imagine what it is you're seeing your girl friends jump up for a date, go up out + come back with them. It must be difficult.

I, once in a while know of such goings on here - either with nurses or - some of these fellows have married some not, but you know sweet that I do not nor shall not have anything to do with any girl. It would be that way if I were home; so why not maintain the same standard even though we are apart. We love each other so much, I am sure, that this vicissitude which we must be burdened with will, if it is possible to, love each other more. Sometimes I take myself with the thought - expressed by the novelist - "And this, too will pass." It is but a moment then + we are apart in the eternity which is ours. If we can remember that, maybe it will lighten this Sorrow loneliness which we have to shoulder. I love you Jean.

It is too bad you had such unpleasantness with Ruth, but that must be over.

Beautiful gorgeous girls in "Diamond Horseshoe." Well I have something to say about that. Especially because it may be when I worked for Billy Rose, but even if they are otherwise, as it probably is so, it still holds.

Well of course under lights with proper make-up, it's not much of a trick to be beautiful, but as they really look when they are themselves it's a different story. Furthermore, even those who are really pretty - why my dear I think, it was G.B. Shaw who said - "a girl or boy who is beautiful at twenty should thank God + her parents; but at fifty the beautician." There has to be something else - call it beauty of soul if you wish which really counts. The other is superficial. Too many of the girls in show business are vacuous.

You know there was a time when I went out only with beautiful girls. If they weren't I interested. Well then I found out that I could enjoy myself with these girls - stimulate a mental occupation - why when the situation was such as to take the girl in my arms - I couldn't do it. Just couldn't. A sort of revulsion was there. Thank goodness I recognized all that + discarded that theory.

Then when I was in the process of trying to find a balance of beauty + intellect, God lead me to Temple + that Friday night + I forgot everything - all theories, all preconceived ideas. I was so bowled over I must have been funny to you. Then I was taken with the idea of how, if we were to marry, I would support you. Reason came into play + I freed myself to look at other couples, + see how they were faring. It was during that time I found out how accomplished you are mentally + how I could enjoy myself with you even when you aren't in my arms and what a battle I had not to take you forcibly. You see my dear you are wonderful - you are beauty + intellect synthesized. You are the one I adore.

As far as what is to be with me dear - I just don't know. I have 46 points, which is a drop in the bucket, so to speak. But as yet my division has not been committed for anything. Army of occupation or Japan. It is probably being decided. Probably when that is I'll know what kind of a deal is in store for me. Unfortunately, in place of 46 M.O.S. we stand the optimistic even if this outfit remains, for they may see fit to transfer me because of the 46. Who Knows? Meanwhile I go also doing my duty to the best of my ability + pray for our reunion. I want you so much dear.

I don't know why you haven't received any mail later than 2 May, for I have been writing regularly.

I miss you so much dear, and am glad you are doing "as well as can be expected without a husband."

Please take good care of yourself.

Your devoted husband
Dolph.